Total Eclipse of the Heart

Total Eclipse of the Heart

Total Eclipse of the Heart

Soft implies hard, deep implies shallow, and yes, darkness implies light. Challenge, when observed with proper care, is nothing but a form of friction. Friction forms heat. Heat means life.

We try to avoid pain, we try to walk away from challenge, and yet, it seems, no matter how much we try, challenge seems to find its way to our center. We try and practice stillness; we retreat, fold back, and isolate ourselves from painful situations. Yet again, if we observe these actions closely, this motion of withdrawal eventually makes us numb and frozen.

The heart knows what the mind chooses to forget. The heart swells through both darkness and light. It has a rhythm and a consistent beat. In and out, back and forth. It beats in unison with the currents of life. On, off, black, white, yin, yang. The magic, of course, lies in the in-between. The range of colors and the rainbow of emotions that forms from this endless cycle of birth and rebirth. And yet… even with this deep understanding of the natural order of life, we still shy away from embracing our darkness.

Our darkness feels cold and alienating. We attribute pain and isolation to our moments of depression, fear, and aloneness. If we could personify our darkness, it would be an old, saggy spirit with claws and red blazing eyes. But what if… just if… we chose to embrace and remember that dark implies light. That our moments of shadow indicate that just behind this eclipsing sun is a blazing torch of knowing who we are. That this shade of the moon is momentary; it allows us clarity and reminds us of our glory and utmost grace.

The heart eclipses more often than we realize. Actually, many times throughout the course of a day. It swells and contracts. It goes through endless seasons. This journey is shaping our destiny. This voyage within the peaks and valleys of our consciousness is the essence of growth itself. The masters who have walked this path before have often said and invited us to look at life with equanimity. The highs and the lows. The deep and the shallow. Nature, they said, has an all-encompassing rhythm. The monsoon follows the drought, and the storm makes way for the brilliant rainbow.

It is not simple to let go of our resistance to pain. It is not easy for us to embrace our shadow. But in so doing, a new sense of living forms. A new place of receptivity. A raw sensation of the cold wind blowing on our warm, naked skin. Our senses expand, our mind sharpens, and just before it can expand, our heart will gently contract. We grow as we allow and witness these nuances, these signs of growth. As we fear not our moments of challenge and embrace our shadowy parts.

To fall in love with ourselves means just that. Embracing all there is. The light and the dark, the deep and the shallow. Facing each phase of our eclipsing heart and allowing the growth to occur on its own accord.

Category: Spirituality
Kai Karrel is a spiritual teacher, a practicing medium, and the Founder of the Celestial Heart Church. He advocates for the sacramental usage of entheogenic plant medicine in support of spiritual development and the evolution of consciousness. He is also the author of Prayerful Heart, a channeled book of invocations and prayers planned to be published later this year. Kai lives with his beloved wife, Jade, in Tulare, California.